Song: Oops, there goes my shirt, up over my head. Oops, there goes my skirt droppin to my feet

Dream scribble: Engaged to a really tall white guy. The feeling I’m getting from him is very secure. Like he can take care of me and I feel very protected. Definitely think this dream has to do with me wanting this kind of guy. Someone older, protective, strong, someone that can take care of me and make me feel secure. His height def conveyed that too. He had his arm around me a lot and I felt very little and very safe there. I don’t know why he was white though. I don’t want a white guy. =) We are at a restaurant with his parents. When they are leaving, they look at me very worried and I sense it but don’t say anything. I don’t know why they look worried. They seem to asking me if I’m sure I really want to marry their son. I don’t think this is really spoken out loud but this is the feeling I get from them. Maybe we communicate telepathically! Ha it IS a dream after all. After they leave I find out why they were so worried. Fiancée tells me that he has some kind of illness where his mind slowly deteriorates. He is already starting to stutter and has trouble speaking. He tells me that he will get worse and that he’s sorry that we have to start our life together like this. He is on his knees, hugging me. The realization that my protector will not be able to take care of me anymore and that I’ll have to be the strong one and take care of him is too much for me to handle. I tell him I can’t do it and I leave.

I can analyze this dream myself very easily. It is about me wanting a guy that is very much the manly man. One that is strong, physically and more importantly mentally. Someone that can take care of me and make me feel safe and secure. The realization that my “fiancée” no longer meets these criteria is something I can’t or won’t accept. So I walk away. Interesting…

On the other hand I have no idea what my previous dream means. It is about being chased by evil beings that are trying to eat me! Of course I kick major ass and escape! Another Super Key adventure!

Oh boy it is another warm day here in NY. How beautiful!! Yesterday I wore my new Victoria's Secret skirt. It was my first time wearing it and I love it! I have the one in khaki so I think I'll get myself a black one too. =)

Ever watch one of those Maury Povich type talk shows where a bunch of women come out on stage and you have to guess if they were really women or dressed up men? Well this reminded me of it! I didn't do so bad, I got 10 out of 16 right! I can spot a cross dresser a mile away! Don't try to fool me now! Hmm...reminds me of that episode of Friends where Ross, Chandler and Monica are telling each others' secrets and Ross tells the one where Chandler kissed a woman at a bar...well at least he THOUGHT it was a woman. Haha!

I saw my dogs yesterday for the first time in a very long time. They live at my mom's store so I don't get to see them too often. But last night I had to pick my mom up from work so I got to visit. They were SO happy to see me! I have 2 but my favorite is Max. Shhh, don't tell J, the other one, that! He thinks he's a cat and rubs himself against my legs and weaves in and out between them. Which is kinda hard on me since he is a BIG Jindogae, and many times, ends up knocking me over. Then I started petting him and of course talking to him. "Hi Max! Hi Max baby! Did you miss me? Huh? Huh? Good baby! Good doggie!"

J, is not an affection seeker like Max is. They are complete opposites. J will come and say hi and then go do his own thing. He doesn't even sit still long enough to be petted. He's always running around. He even can't stay still when he's eating. He eats really fast, spraying his food around everywhere. If you give him a treat, he'll gobble it up the second it leaves your hand. Max on the other hand, is a bit more calm. He LOVES to be petted (especially by me!) and spoken to. He likes to sit right next to me (he has to be touching me). When I pet him he just rolls over and totally melts into a blissful doggie puddle and just lies there happily, with his tongue sticking out. He eats pretty slowly and carefully. He'll sniff everything you give him and lick it first (to taste) before putting it in his mouth. But they're both cute kids (that's what I call them) and if they didn't fight so much, they would be perfect.

Rambling about nothing in particular today! I am so very much enjoying this weather. I wish it was summer every day! I am truly a flower, turning her face to the sun, and smiling. =) Have a happy day everyone!

Hello to Mr Rice Bowl Man, Carlos! Lookin good, Mr Kotter! =)

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