Song: So afraid to love you, more afraid to lose. Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose

Dream scribble (from Sunday night): in one dream I was pregnant! I was about 7 months pregnant and I came to the office after being out for most of my pregnancy. Everybody was so surprised at how big I had gotten. I wasn’t fat though. I gained no weight, just the belly. So here was I, a lil girl with a huge belly. But I was fine. I felt no discomfort from the pregnancy whatsoever. I happened to get to the office around the time the coffee truck came. So I started buying all this food from the truck. And I would eat and buy some more. I just kept eating and eating. Everybody was surprised at how much I was eating because normally I eat very lil. The other dream was HORRIBLE! I was at church with Jen when she told me that she had spoken to Peter the day before and that he told her that he got back together with that girl and how he really likes her and that he doesn’t care about me anymore. And he was really mean about it too! I was hearbroken! Dreams can feel so real sometimes. And somehow that girl (her name is Jane) got my cell phone number and kept leaving me all these text messages saying how he loves her and he’s with her now and that he doesn’t care about me. She was basically being a big fat bitch. Somehow Janet Jackson is my friend and I’m crying to her about it. Strange. It all felt very real though. I told Peter about it yesterday and he said don’t worry it’s just a dream. Said that would NEVER happen. Haha! Reassurance is a good thing.

I honestly don't have anything to write today. How boring!

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