Song: And though my heart can't take no more, I still keep running back to you

Randomness: My mouth is bored!! *wink wink*

Foutre! My AIM isn't working! I uninstalled and reinstalled it. Didn't work. So I shut down and restarted. Still doesn't work. Even better, now my MSN Messenger (which was working before) doesn't work either! Just great...

Ever analyze how you fight with your significant other? What are your fighting habits? I was talking to Yvonne last night....well actually she was bitching and venting to me because she was pissed at Eddie. I finally mentioned to her something I realized a long time ago. They are mean to each other when they fight! Oh boy! And I thought a lil more about it and realized, almost all the couples I know are the same way. When they fight they curse at each other, they call each other names, are saracastic and just plain mean.

I can understand that, yes, you are angry. But how does it help the situation any if you curse and belittle each other? That only fuels your anger and theirs too.

People need to learn how to fight correctly. Fighting is normal; it's not wrong to fight. It's just the way they go about it that bothers me. Hey I'm not perfect and I used to fight unfairly too. I always nitpicked. If my significant other said one word wrong or just said something in a different tone of voice, I would totally use that against him and start bitching about that. That was just a really cheap, low way to give me the upper hand. After I realized that I did this, I knew I had to stop. It did take some time but I no longer do that anymore. At least I hope so! =)

The cursing is another big peeve of mine. Why do you feel the need to curse at your SO and call them names? Do you really believe they are what you're calling them? I cannot imagine cursing at my SO and I, in turn, would feel really hurt if he cursed at me or called me names. And once people get used to doing so, it becomes so normal. As if it's nothing, when those words in actuality are really hurtful.

I think if people can stick to what the fight is about and be reasonable about it, things will be much more smoother. Of course there are many other factors in fighting correctly but I don't want to go on about that now. I already feel like a :mommy" as it is!

On to other thingsˇ¦..

I know this may sound silly but I feel a bit weird about hanging out with Peter's friends tonight for his birthday. I'm feeling a bit self-conscious and a need to impress. You know, I actually don't know why I feel like this. I'm sure it's a number of reasons. Off the top of my head I can name a few reasons why. I'm not sure how they relate though. It's all still pretty much a mess in my mind. I'm thinking it's because I am the ex girlfriend (though we are in a gray area right now) and because I don't really know his friends and have never really hung out with them. My friends know (and adore!) him because I've always tried to include him when I hung out with them. If there was a birthday or some gathering I always tried to bring him out too. But that was only because he would come home to NY on his breaks and during the weekends. I never had a reason to go there to Jersey and hang out with his friends.

It doesn't bother me a great deal. It's just like a nagging thought in the back of my head. Boy I feel like I'm back in high school or something! Insecurity is a weird, almost foreign feeling for me now. Whatever. I just brush it off. Haha!

Interesting note about tonight...the girl that Peter was dating will also be there tonight. And we both know about each other. Hmm...in all honesty though, I have no bad feelings towards this girl. I don't even know her. She just happened to be the girl that he dated. Could have been anyone. But she better not disrespect me in any way or there will be trouble.

Long entry today huh? Due to very lil work and the internet being down. Plus I actually had stuff to talk about today! *grin*

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