Song: You've got your finger on the pulse of my soul

It's funny how the train of thought runs. Turned on the radio in the car and "The Space Between" by Dave Matthews band was playing. My brain starts ticking away. Hmm...this song was in the commercial for "Black Hawk Down". Oh yea Yvonne was talking about how much she liked that movie the other day. She saw it already. So did Peter. Then I come to the realization that I have nobody who will save movies for me. You don't count Yvonne since you have Eddie. =) But anyways, noone will wait and not see a movie just to see it with me. And that made me suddenly sad. Funny how thoughts flow into each other.

Sometimes I get the nagging notion that my life is lacking. I can't exactly pinpoint what but at different times, I come up with what it may be. Sometimes I feel like I have an itch to get off my ass and do something. Do something different. Like The Burning Man. It sounds different and interesting. But then again the realistic (ahem, princessy) side of me thinks, "God no! It's in the friggin desert!! Bugs and dirt and stuff. Yuck!" Well at least I went snowboarding. That's pretty adventurous for me. I was supposed to have gone sky diving last fall but everyone backed out! Maybe this year. Another adventure I have in mind for myself; to travel through Europe. To all those place I lived or visited when I was too young to appreciate it. Alone. Before I hit 30. I should put this on my "To Do Before I Turn 30" list.

Other times I feel like I'm missing a someone. Maybe a higher power. Maybe I feel lost because I'm trying to run my own life instead of letting God do that for me. *shrug* Or maybe what I'm missing is a real life flesh and blood person. Someone who will save movies for me.

By the way, you're crazy in the head. Really! But thank you nevertheless. I *hug* you.

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